Conservative Black Woman: I Will Not Bow Down To The "God Of Racial Indignation"

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I Will Not Bow Down To The "God Of Racial Indignation"

My heart is heavy this hour because of the anger which I have invoked with my those closest to me because of my politics. I found a note in my Bible from Sept 2005(apparently I was in this battle at that time as well) in Gen. 12:1-3 God called Abraham out of his country, his people and his father's household because they were worshipping many gods. Well, I am certainly no Abraham, but my people are worshipping many gods as well -- one of them being the "god of racial indignation". If you are choosing a candidate just because of the color of his skin (I'm not speaking to those who feel he is the best candidate -- that's different--I supposed ignorance is bliss) because this is the first time in history you have had an opportunity to do so then you are succumbing to the sense of racial indignation you feel for past injustices. You have made it a god because you have allowed it to consume you and you will not move through the pain of the past to your future free from those mental shackles. Hmm, do you really want change or do you derive pleasure from being angry, bitter, and paranoid. I assure you white people don't give a flying fig about your inner turmoil, you appear whiny and weak. It's like the kid on the playground who cries because the other kids don't like them (yeah, I know racism exists and....). Grow up, I'm not saying forget the past but put your big girl panties on and shift your paradigm towards progression. The dems only play on your pain when they want your votes at election time. You have a right to "never forget" and continue to wallow in your ancestral pain -- but, I refuse to bow down to that god and refuse to let racial indignation commandeer my innermost parts.

7 comments:

Pamela said...: There is a friend of mine that I will not engage at all because of this. I remember clearly the day that I sent her an email asking Christians to pray for our new president George W Bush. It was not even a month after he was elected. the response she gave me brought me to tears. I had not seen any Christian spew such utter ugliness about anything. It is a rare day I'm brought to tears like that. She has been sending me garbage emails that I know she did not check the facts about. I quietly delete them and at times hope and pray that God will deal with her. She is still bowing to the throne of racial hatred. And she wonders why she has no control over her eating and is dealing with really bad high blood pressure. Anger and bitterness does nothing but destroys the bitter person. They are also victim to any manipulative person. They are in prison. They can choose to leave that prison if they want to. I'm convinced that many love being that way because they feel it gives them something. Not sure what.; October 15, 2008 at 10:56 AM
Conservative Black Woman said...: This comment has been removed by the author.; October 15, 2008 at 11:03 AM
Conservative Black Woman said...: Pamela~ I'm afraid this bitterness thing is practically epidemic in my social circle.

I'm getting very weary.; October 15, 2008 at 11:09 AM
Anonymous said...: I have prayed for you that you will not be weary and that you will have peace about your situation. I can relate to your feelings. My DD who is barely a teen receives text forwards all day encouraging her to vote for Obama. Even at her young age she can see that people are voting for him simply because he's black. She told me to read my Bible today to get some more information on the current situation. I have no friends of my color who share my political views-even those who are Christian make excuses or just say they hate McCain. I often find myself searching for friends who are my color, people who share my conservative views on life. I have no friends like this, except one friend who is a different race. It can feel lonely at times. I hope you feel better soon about the situation, because we cannot change others, only our reaction to them. I try to simply present factual info to others and if they still choose to disregard it, well at least they know.; October 15, 2008 at 1:30 PM
Conservative Black Woman said...: Thanks Meredith for your encouragement. I'm on the mend mentally, I just took my eye off of the Father for a time and had a pity party.; October 15, 2008 at 1:45 PM
Zabeth said...: I feel your pain. I'm going through this right now too. It'll probably only get worse the next 21 days. All you can do really is just stay strong and pray.; October 15, 2008 at 3:23 PM
Katrina said...: conservative black woman-- first of all, I have been followng your blog for about a week and I love it! You espouse all of my views as a young black conservative Christian female. Thank you!

meredith- reading your post was like reading my life as of now. I can't fathom why Christians that I know love Obama. I know for a fact that they haven't really researched him because when I bring up issues like his abortion record they seem shock. Yet through it all they still love this guy.

Now I don'tmind anyone voting for him because they agree with his views, but when you are voting for somone just because he shares your skin color--that is just WRONG.

I am surround by pro-Obama people who email me crazy myths about McCain and Palin all the time and I just delete them.

It is all truly sad. Stay true to yourself though, Meredith. You are not alone even though it feels that way.; October 15, 2008 at 4:06 PM

About

Don't let the title of this blog deceive you. Yes, I'm a Conservative Black Woman -- Not to be confused with Republican Black Woman. At this point I am in fact a Political Atheist. I believe with every fiber of my being that America is no longer a Constitutional Republic but rather a Corporate Fascist Oligarchy. Our Presidents are just the puppets, tools, spokespersons for the Powers that Be...Council of Foreign Relations and various other NGO's who are beholden to the International Banking Cabal. No, I'm not a Conspiracy Theorist -- I am a Conspiracy Researcher and I'd advise you to do the same. Who said "I would not have you ignorant?" Yes, that's my "handler" for all of those who think I have one. Over the course of writing this blog. My paradigm has shifted ENTIRELY. Yes, the paragraph below still applies but the Left\Right, Democrat\Republican head fake no longer applies to me. I WOKE UP!!!!

"I am fed up with what has happening within the black community. Too many of our families are broken, too many of us are morally degenerate and too many of us are willing to blame all of our pathology on slavery, George Bush, the Republican party or anything but our failures as Parents, Husbands, Wives and Christians."

My Favorite Quotations.....

Truth is scarcely found. But integrity and truth are hardly found within the Black population as a whole at least not where it involves black people. Most blacks have pledged allegiance to their blackness, not truth, not to America, not even to God as many profess. Integrity and truth has to go out the window if it somehow poses a threat to the "positive" image of blackness. ~Anonymous

Regarding Obama's hit on Gadhafi's family: "He's spineless and shameless, except when his masters unleash him on people of color. Then he becomes a pit bull--a real life Sambo/Quimbo doing the dirty work of Simon Legree. TPTB knew exactly what they were doing when they "selected" Obama to manage their psychopathocracy." ~ Makheru Bradley

"Whenever I hear cats start talking that "community" shit I know they are not serious. No one is accountable in conversations about "da community". That "we as a people"... Plantation Negro segmentation nonsense is Kool-Aid left over from the 70's. It perpetuates the illusion that there is even such a thing as a "black community". There aint no "community" and hasn't been in 40 years. Most Negros don't even know their neighbors."The only effective group is FAMILY. Families are the cells of a society. Destruction of the cell is cancer. An effective institution, expectation and habit of marriage is the antidote." ~Denmark Vesey(A Bloggin' Beast!!!!)

The irony of having an economic system that you hate be the source of your entitlement that is in excess of your productive capacity. -- Constructive Feedback (Blogger Extraordinaire)

Most people can't think, most of the remainder won't think, the small fraction who do think mostly can't do it very well. The extremely tiny fraction who think regularly, accurately, creatively, and without self-delusion – in the long run, these are the only people who count. -Robert A. Heinlein

Illumination of the above Frederick Douglass quote by blogger extraordinaire Constructive Feedback

With all due respect to this great I am not sure that he could have imagined the day where:

"Non-justice" is delivered by the hands of favorable officials with racial diversity that realize "Black on Black violence" is not seen as "violent" as other modalities
Where allowing "ignorance to prevail" is a favorable strategy for the retention of power by those who position themselves as saviors
Where "conspiracy theories" are effective tools to allow people to remain unified against an external threat - even when it has moved away and they are all by themselves - otherwise having to manage the human resources before them toward a more conscious end.

In this environment - Robbery, the oppression of intimidation, and degradation put in the form of a music genre lead to an inevitable condition of insecurity for persons and property.