Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I Will Not Bow Down To The "God Of Racial Indignation"

My heart is heavy this hour because of the anger which I have invoked with my those closest to me because of my politics. I found a note in my Bible from Sept 2005(apparently I was in this battle at that time as well) in Gen. 12:1-3 God called Abraham out of his country, his people and his father's household because they were worshipping many gods. Well, I am certainly no Abraham, but my people are worshipping many gods as well -- one of them being the "god of racial indignation". If you are choosing a candidate just because of the color of his skin (I'm not speaking to those who feel he is the best candidate -- that's different--I supposed ignorance is bliss) because this is the first time in history you have had an opportunity to do so then you are succumbing to the sense of racial indignation you feel for past injustices. You have made it a god because you have allowed it to consume you and you will not move through the pain of the past to your future free from those mental shackles. Hmm, do you really want change or do you derive pleasure from being angry, bitter, and paranoid. I assure you white people don't give a flying fig about your inner turmoil, you appear whiny and weak. It's like the kid on the playground who cries because the other kids don't like them (yeah, I know racism exists and....). Grow up, I'm not saying forget the past but put your big girl panties on and shift your paradigm towards progression. The dems only play on your pain when they want your votes at election time. You have a right to "never forget" and continue to wallow in your ancestral pain -- but, I refuse to bow down to that god and refuse to let racial indignation commandeer my innermost parts.

7 comments:

Pamela said...

There is a friend of mine that I will not engage at all because of this. I remember clearly the day that I sent her an email asking Christians to pray for our new president George W Bush. It was not even a month after he was elected. the response she gave me brought me to tears. I had not seen any Christian spew such utter ugliness about anything. It is a rare day I'm brought to tears like that. She has been sending me garbage emails that I know she did not check the facts about. I quietly delete them and at times hope and pray that God will deal with her. She is still bowing to the throne of racial hatred. And she wonders why she has no control over her eating and is dealing with really bad high blood pressure. Anger and bitterness does nothing but destroys the bitter person. They are also victim to any manipulative person. They are in prison. They can choose to leave that prison if they want to. I'm convinced that many love being that way because they feel it gives them something. Not sure what.

Conservative Black Woman said...
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Conservative Black Woman said...

Pamela~ I'm afraid this bitterness thing is practically epidemic in my social circle.

I'm getting very weary.

Meredith said...

I have prayed for you that you will not be weary and that you will have peace about your situation. I can relate to your feelings. My DD who is barely a teen receives text forwards all day encouraging her to vote for Obama. Even at her young age she can see that people are voting for him simply because he's black. She told me to read my Bible today to get some more information on the current situation. I have no friends of my color who share my political views-even those who are Christian make excuses or just say they hate McCain. I often find myself searching for friends who are my color, people who share my conservative views on life. I have no friends like this, except one friend who is a different race. It can feel lonely at times. I hope you feel better soon about the situation, because we cannot change others, only our reaction to them. I try to simply present factual info to others and if they still choose to disregard it, well at least they know.

Conservative Black Woman said...

Thanks Meredith for your encouragement. I'm on the mend mentally, I just took my eye off of the Father for a time and had a pity party.

Zabeth said...

I feel your pain. I'm going through this right now too. It'll probably only get worse the next 21 days. All you can do really is just stay strong and pray.

Katrina said...

conservative black woman-- first of all, I have been followng your blog for about a week and I love it! You espouse all of my views as a young black conservative Christian female. Thank you!

meredith- reading your post was like reading my life as of now. I can't fathom why Christians that I know love Obama. I know for a fact that they haven't really researched him because when I bring up issues like his abortion record they seem shock. Yet through it all they still love this guy.

Now I don'tmind anyone voting for him because they agree with his views, but when you are voting for somone just because he shares your skin color--that is just WRONG.

I am surround by pro-Obama people who email me crazy myths about McCain and Palin all the time and I just delete them.

It is all truly sad. Stay true to yourself though, Meredith. You are not alone even though it feels that way.